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I have never been a big fan of New Year’s resolutions.  In the past I have been heard saying things like “If I want to change my life, I’m going to do it because I want to change it.  I don’t need it to be January first in order to try to be better.”  Which is a really nice idea, and, where I am concerned, utter crap.  I have mentioned on this blog before that I am a creature of habit, and that I am undisciplined, and a bunch of other things that you may or may not be tired of reading by now. I absolutely need a hokey tradition and a bunch of hype in order to make a change in my life.  It’s a flaw, and I know that.  I shouldn’t need it.  But I do, so there we are.  And here we go.  The things that I didn’t do so well in 2013 and would like to do better in 2014. Let’s get the obvious ones out of the way first:

  • Be healthier.

To be fair, I do a lot better now than I did a few years ago, but I have slipped back into some bad habits.  I need to start eating better (again), and exercising more (again), and drinking more water (again).  My brother Jake has gotten really into his own workout and diet routine (including a truly badass treadmill and Shakeology), so I’ve been asking him some questions.  Knowing me, there will be updates about fitness to follow on this not-a-fitness-blog.

  • Blog more.

Just write more, in general.  Taking into account the fact that I’m no longer writing a thesis or a whole pile of term papers, I probably did a better job of writing consistently in 2013 than I did in any any other non-academic situation before.  So, you know, hooray for me.  But 2014 needs to be better.  I will at the very least break my 30 entry streak and hopefully get all the way to 52.  I also want to finish something a little longer.  I had visions of a completed novel dancing through my head a few days ago, but maybe I’ll just start slow.  A short story.

  • I have already covered the decision-making thing in a previous entry, and I won’t bore you by rehashing it here.

And now for some less obvious ones:

  • Read more.

I don’t read nearly as much as you might think.  The thing is that after I get home from work (which is late at night), huddling on the couch with a book will usually just put me to sleep, and it already bothers me that most of the time I spend at home is while I’m sleeping.  I like to wind down, while awake, after work.  Plus, those aliens that are attacking the Earth aren’t going to fire plasma rifles at themselves and drive off their own invasion.  It’s a thankless job, but somebody has to do it.  Seriously, though, it’s a problem.  I now have a subscription to Audible.com, which is phenomenal.  It has really given me an appreciation for good audiobook productions.  Cool stuff.

  • Do more professional development.

Both at my “job” job and in my writing.  They’re pretty good about assigning training stuff at work, but that has more to do with maintenance of knowledge and updates about policy changes than actual development.  I’m currently in the middle of an Adobe Illustrator training, and I’m looking through the catalog to see what else is available (and what I’ll have time for…)  The writing side of it will be largely fulfilled by writing and reading more, so that’s nice.  But I think I want to branch out a bit.  Try a new style.

  • Rekindle my interior life.

A month or two ago I blogged about how much more creative I was when I was in college.  This resolution is related to that.  I used to have so many ideas.  So many interesting lines of thought.  Entire worlds to crawl around in and explore.  Nowadays, I don’t spend much time in my own head, and when I do, it’s usually in the obsessing-over-something-I’m-worried-about kind of way.

Part of that is probably because I now have a job that requires more of me, intellectually speaking, than any I had during the last few years of my undergrad.  I can’t just go on autopilot at work and spend the day between my ears like I could before.  And when I get off work, I’m often so worn out from the day that I’d rather listen to music than spend time with my thoughts.  Part of it is being out of school.   The rest is me being my undisciplined self.  So, you know, that needs to stop…

I’m looking forward to this year.  I don’t have any grand claims that start with “This is the year that I…”, but I’m feeling good.  Thank you, as always, for reading.  I hope that you are well and that the year ahead of you looks sunny and hopeful.

More to follow.

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